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Is an 18 year old girl interested in many many RANDOM things. She lives in a country with more than 7,000 islands & does not have snow. She may be a Rookie Photographer/ Blogger/ Student/ Christian/ Dreamer/ Hair-Flipper.

Formed from a genetic mutation of Pizza and Fluffy Clouds or Marshmallows.
Does not approach.
Loves zombies/pirates/koreans and thinks she's one herself.
The biggest loser you will ever meet.

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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

A Thought Of A New Dream. Hope. Faith. Everything Nice!

I grabbed the chance. Forgetting all the pain inside me. It wasn't easy but somehow I managed.

"I'm coming or not?", I think of it over and over again. It was passed twelve midnight and I haven't had my sleep yet. I'm thinking so deep whether I'll go with mom to Cebu for Kuya's and Ate Cai's Graduation or not. I crawled on my bed and hugged my pillow weighing things out for hours in the middle of the night restlessly. Thinking that if I come, I will missed half of my high school life for i wouldn't be able to attend the so called "recollection". I asked my mom when will we come back and it's before our recollection. So I asked God for wisdom and He gave it to me. Soooo faastt! I made my final decision. "I'll come with you, mom" I said with hesitant. Then I thought, "For Once, Please Let Yourself To Be Happy. Even Once Let Pain Go Away".

I packed my things up and sleep.

Everything seems so fast and here comes my Kuya's Graduation. I was totally moved from the entrance until the end; the clapping, the sitting, the receiving of diplomas, the singing and the throwing of cap! Everything was with choreography.   

Although there's a boring part in the receiving of diplomas cause the graduates of Nautical Engineering & Marine Engineering was equaled to a thousands. It's funny how the emcee called names in such a swift!

My best part that really catches the heart of every parents, family & relatives of the graduates was when they sing their graduates song with all their heart so loudly you had been carried away and sing as well. And the moment they throw their cap in the air. Audience couldn't avoid having a goosebumps.

And me? I was there at center holding my cam with a trembling hands i couldn't control and I could feel my goosebumps all over my body. I wouldn't let any move and actions passed. I record it with my cam & took pictures, as well.

The feeling was indescribable.
Waiting for Kuya at the bleachers, I thought to myself, "looks like I just realized something. That Life's battle doesn't end at high school. I will not lose even a single hope! It's still isn't the end I should forget the pain and focused more on my college life. This time I will do my very best! with God's guidance!"

Then, I whipered, "Thank You, Lord for this wonderful day! I will not forget this!"

I saw my Kuya coming towards us. I jumped my pants off and ran to congratulate him [and Hugged him?, no I did'nt I'm not that huggable person-like.lol!]

I turn on the cam and took a picture!

 
Kuya & Mama!
Papa Lando, Kuya, Me & Mama












 Note: Papa Lando is not our father. He is just the proxy. Actually we call him -Papa Lando- that is because he is the older brother of my mom. My Papa, unfortunately couldn't make it as I was telling for you before in that "Surprise Call" post. Thinking that if he will leave his work. There's a big possibility that he cannot work back again. And it will be a financial loss of the family. So he just said to cover everything at Graduation.

After the Graduation, we went out! and have something fun!
We had a dinner! The Foods were Good!
We went to Dumaguete City for Ate Cai's graduation. It wasn't as organized as my Kuya's Grad. but somehow the feeling is the same. I had a boring time sitting at the bleacher so I just let the time passed. I didn't really like how it turned out at the Graduation but after that was another something nice happen.

Ate Cai was a relative of mine. We aren't that close but my mom does. After her grad. we went to Tavern, it's something like a restaurant or a hotel or something can be rented with a mini stage, air conditioned room. There were tables and I think it's a family gathering organized by the graduates for their parents.

After we ate, the freshly graduates entertains us with a short memorable program. They sing a song for their parents and after, they requested them to sit in front. In there, they had spoken the words of gratitude for everything like for their parent's patience & understanding. And for God! most specially. All of them cried. And we the audience was also touched.

That feeling was so nice. To be able to express yourself about problems you had surpass and the success you got. And things weren't been able without our parents who support us, who were there for us in good and in bad times. And for God. 

Ate Cai also joined a club. religious club. That really help her with her spirituality in relationship with God.  The club leader gave his speech for closing remarks. He shared a story about monkeys being put up at one room for experiment by the scientist. And the story somehow improved my personal development. Especially at Positive Thinking! Here it goes:


You may have heard about an experiment that took place in the 1960s that involved monkeys, bananas and a pole (or ladder—I’ve heard different variations; I’ll use pole for this article). If you’re familiar with this, I hope you enjoy the refresher; if not, hopefully you’ll possibly gain some insight to yourself or others!
Apparently some scientists placed a small group of monkeys in a room, along with a pole and a bunch of bananas near the top of the pole. Whenever one of the monkeys tried to climb the pole to grab a banana, the monkey would be doused with cold water, sending it scrambling back down the pole. Subsequently—when each monkeys had tried to get the prize at the top of the pole, each was doused with the water when they tried.

Eventually the scientists replaced one of the original monkeys with a new one. When the new monkey tried to climb the pole to get a banana, the others pulled him down, effectively telling him that he couldn’t/shouldn’t even try to climb the pole. He kept trying until he succumbed to their “protection”.

Soon, another new monkey replaced an original one, and was treated the same when it tried to climb the pole. Eventually, it too gave up.

Before too long, all of the original monkeys had been replaced, leaving only monkeys in the room that had never been doused with water. Although none of them knew WHY they weren’t supposed to climb the pole, they just knew that something terrible must await them, so none of them dared even try!

Sound like something our concerned, protective friends, family and neighbors might tell us regarding that MLM or Networking “thing” we’re doing? “That will never work!” or   “My cousin’s wife’s sister tried that once and she failed miserably!” While it’s important to respect other’s opinions, we don’t have to adopt those opinions—especially if those opinions come from people who may not understand that there’s a right way and a wrong way to building a network marketing business, just like everything else in life! I would hope that if those same people would seek guidance at their J-O-B if they weren’t having success.

For the rest of us—let’s climb the pole and reach our prize!

Somehow, I realized that no matter what happens have faith in God and he will be there right by your side wherever you chooses to go. He will lead you in the right path, at the right time, in the right place but in return you must also have the faith in him, the courage to reach your goals no matter what comes ahead. Just Think Positive and Never Lose Hope and Faith If You Faced Problems. Let's Climb the Pole and together  let's reach the sweet banana of success monkeys!
 
Posted by Claudine Jansen at 10:35 PM 0 comments

When everything light-hearted happen has something in return.

It was the very next day after the night at Prom. I woke up experiencing a terrible headache. Late in the afternoon the same day, I was about to upload all the photos from my cam straight to my facebook that time when I feel uncomfortable. I felt dizzy and exhausted. Thinking that it was just a headache I turned off the computer and lay on my bed until I woke up late at night with a fever.

The next day, I checked my phone only to find out that I wasn't the only person who got ill. 4 out of 10 of my classmates. Yes! we are that plenty. My mom asked me what's the reason. Why there are so many of us who got a fever. Then, I thought of something like the food we eat at Prom. Maybe we got poisoned! But that was too harsh so I just keep it.

Days passed and the fever won't go away. My mom was worried about me. I told her about I am not the only one who got a fever. Curiosity bites her, she went to school and found out that half of the class were absent. And it was because of the Fever.

After three days of staying at home my mom finally decided to brought me to the hospital. The Doctors gave me medicines for my fever and cough and I also got dextrose on my left hand. Every morning and afternoon everyday that Medical Technologist always check for me to get some drop of blood from my poor little fingers. Of course it hurts but just in a couple of seconds.

7 days later. That's a week and the fever is still there. The Med-Tech found out the my blood count is declining. This time it wasn't just a fever.

                                   It was a DENGUE FEVER!
4-5 days of fever & low blood count were just few symptoms of dengue. Without a second thought the doctors recommend us to transfer to a bigger hospital. Not until the dawn broke down, we rode the fastest boat in town headed to the city of Surigao.

We stayed there for two weeks. And it was one of those days that the time travels so slow it could kill an alien. Boring, unpleasant smell, never took a bath, uncomfortably move and everything shity & shit.

I was very happy when I was discharged. The smell of fresh air, jumping/running & pizza filled my thoughts vivaciously. But when I came back everything's change at school.
I wasn't ready to face everything but I have to forced myself. Even if I wasn't prepared, all the teachers I'm in gave me the test papers to be answered on that very day!!! I can do nothing but answer it right away just as they wanted. Some of them gave that "pity look" on me when I answered so many papers so they offer that some will be answered tomorrow.At least I will be prepared then but not very much.

Because I'm 2 weeks absent from my class and took the final exam unprepared. I got the farthest rank ever received!

Top 31 out of 41. I lost hope, everything. I'm hopeless I tried to be okay. I tried to smile even if its painful inside. I tried but I just can't. I stayed silent.

No complain. No feelings. Nothing. Not even a word I spoke.

My mom tried to understand what's happening at school. But I didn't cooperate so she stopped, I guess and I know nothing till then.

I was really hoping that I will belong to the top 10 of my class. But unfortunately a trial just appeared. And it let me down. I wonder why if happy times will come into your way there will be something unfortunate happen in return.

And it turned out all my extra-curricular were just unworthy at all cause only the top 10 have the right to be used to it. I wonder why Life's so Unfair.
I got rank 15 and its really a pain. A pain that I lost interest at school and I wanted to stay away with it. Opportunity comes and my mom asked me if I am interested to accompany her for Kuya's Graduation. I accepted it and in there I let the pain go away.
Posted by Claudine Jansen at 1:59 AM 0 comments

Saturday, March 12, 2011

JS Promenade '11

I'm a Senior! =]


What happened to me at Prom, you asked? Well, I just sit their awkwardly at the side like a retarded girl trying to be invisible, as planned. Yes! as planned. That night I'm the most 'KillJoy' retarded princess-like ever existed. I liked it that way for the same reason when I'm in a crowd:
First: I'm not comfortable wearing a dress. And that is obviously matter if I didn't like what I'm wearing. I lose my confidence. The dress was too tight. I can't breath normally.
Second: My hair was not what I liked it to be.
Third: Wearing a sandal was my most hated part. I hate it when my feet look thin.
Fourth: My make-up! WTH! I put it all in the wrong bad way. Thanks God the lipstick & my eye make-up were okay, at least. The foundation ruined it all : too white and uneven and have I mention before the white spots that just appeared all over my face? Nah! Those spots were embarrassing!
Fifth: What I hated the most was when people will stare at me from head to toe when it's time to walk at the aisles with my whosoever partner.
These reasons just explained that : I hated my physical appearance. I may not be ugly nor beautiful but luckily I'm at the middle.

What really is about JS Prom? Why is it necessary to experience it even once in your life? Why didn't I enjoy it like the rest of my classmates?

But, somehow, I did really experience that time the true essence of JS Prom. But because from the start I already planned to be invisible, I let that opportunity pass me. I ignore that chance to feel what really is JS Prom. I regret it but I'm thinking what'll happen to me if I accepted that offer. Embarrassed? because I know my friends will tease me? Or I'll be having the best feeling I ever had. LOL!
I blocked my happiness that day. So, I'll be going home full of regrets.

After the Party when all the students were going home, I stopped at the middle of the hall and looked back saying, "Farewell, JS Prom. I will miss this day!" restraining my tears from falling down. Then, I breathed deeply & continue walking.
So Long JUNIOR & SENIOR PROM!

"Sometimes in Life all we wanted was to disappear but all we really want is to be found"
Posted by Claudine Jansen at 10:06 PM 0 comments
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