Some things just don't go my way...

I want a swim, a super typhoon comes.

I want a coaster ride, a flood comes.

I planned things, they get canceled.

I get more and more desperate every single time.

And the worst part is, I can't do it all by myself even if I badly want it 'cause that would be pathetic.

I don't seem to get why I keep on pushing things that the universe won't even give in. I need to MOVE ON and just ACCEPT the fact that some things just don't go my way or it would have the power to strike back at me and ruin every single cell in my body.

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I can't hold it back anymore, I badly need to LET THIS FEELING GO AWAY.