What happened to me at Prom, you asked? Well, I just sit their awkwardly at the side like a retarded girl trying to be invisible, as planned. Yes! as planned. That night I'm the most 'KillJoy' retarded princess-like ever existed. I liked it that way for the same reason when I'm in a crowd:
First: I'm not comfortable wearing a dress. And that is obviously matter if I didn't like what I'm wearing. I lose my confidence. The dress was too tight. I can't breath normally.
Second: My hair was not what I liked it to be.
Third: Wearing a sandal was my most hated part. I hate it when my feet look thin.
Fourth: My make-up! WTH! I put it all in the wrong bad way. Thanks God the lipstick & my eye make-up were okay, at least. The foundation ruined it all : too white and uneven and have I mention before the white spots that just appeared all over my face? Nah! Those spots were embarrassing!
Fifth: What I hated the most was when people will stare at me from head to toe when it's time to walk at the aisles with my whosoever partner.
These reasons just explained that : I hated my physical appearance. I may not be ugly nor beautiful but luckily I'm at the middle.
What really is about JS Prom? Why is it necessary to experience it even once in your life? Why didn't I enjoy it like the rest of my classmates?
But, somehow, I did really experience that time the true essence of JS Prom. But because from the start I already planned to be invisible, I let that opportunity pass me. I ignore that chance to feel what really is JS Prom. I regret it but I'm thinking what'll happen to me if I accepted that offer. Embarrassed? because I know my friends will tease me? Or I'll be having the best feeling I ever had. LOL!
I blocked my happiness that day. So, I'll be going home full of regrets.
I blocked my happiness that day. So, I'll be going home full of regrets.
After the Party when all the students were going home, I stopped at the middle of the hall and looked back saying, "Farewell, JS Prom. I will miss this day!" restraining my tears from falling down. Then, I breathed deeply & continue walking.
So Long JUNIOR & SENIOR PROM!
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