| Wishes do came true when you least expect it |
Early June, I received an unexpected call. At first I didn't really got excited cause' it happens all the time and it didn't came true. But early Late of June came and it was confirmed. Nobody knew except I did. So I spread it with my family in a kind of " hey! I'm just joking my leg! " sort of way. My mum sort of got mad at me cause she said if thats true then she will know it first thing first.
But I guess my mum won't know things first after all.
late Late of June I remember that night. People were busy decorating while I got hook bracing myself. I reckon my cousin asked me, " how's your heart? " again and again with the same statement rather than a question. "It's indescribable! ", I answered her in my thoughts. I keep on pondering of what would I do first when he arrived. I'd imagined of running towards him as soon as he opened the door. Giving him the berry hugs and kisses. And saying, " Welcome home papa!", in a most sweet and jolly voice.
I didn't notice that I fell asleep...
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T'was around 11pm when my sleep had been interrupted by a shouting voice. I was in a moment of 'loading' then I refrained myself knowing that the time has finally come. This is it!
My Kuya woke me up cause I was still pretending to be asleep. I looked around-no one. When I tilt my head upward - I saw him smiling at me, waiting to be approached by me. Then he said, " Hi den, nandito na ako di mo lang ba i.huhug papa mo?"
I was really surprised even if I already knew that he would come. I didn't notice the next time happened. It was just like yesterday, when he came back. We did things that might be ordinary to some but it was really super extraordinary to us. Like we cooked our favorite food together , we shopped, he drove and picked me up at school. We heart to heart talk 'personally' and not thru phones/chats anymore. And we've laugh and smile and hugs and kisses and ate together and prayed together.
It was like yesterday when we are a complete happy family.
Today I'm on my bed listening music. I covered my body with another bed. And just like a ham on a sandwich with lots of sauce. I cried and cried cause I know for sure deep inside my heart that I was loved. And its so hard to imagine that he was gone again. The feeling of having a father evaporated on a blink of an eye just like a water vapor on its journey away from where it belong. When will I see you again? 6 years from now, again? Thats long!
But I'll be here always waiting for you to come back. I wonder why we have to be separated again. Was it impossible to stay here by our side? God please make it possible cause this heartache is unbearable. What more would he feel? Alone in abroad?
P.S. I wrote this after my Father rode his Taxi to airport. It's kinda late though cause it's already November now. But still, I remember THAT moment and it really make me cry just to think of it. I forced myself to think of it to the other side of the coin. To think Positively. And make that precious moment A TREASURE. =]
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